im going to stop deleting and reposting and deleting this, im going to leave it up.

she is not stupid
So I have no idea why I randomly decided that I wanted to try slam poetry- but I did, and it could be terrible but this is what I came up with and obviously it is meant to be read aloud not read on paper and it was kind of fun for me to read the way I wrote it in my head.

In school she earns A’s, but what does that A stand for? Does it stand for hi her name is girl and your name is boy and she’s gonna twirl her hair to impress you and how can she help you and how can she dress for you? And does that A mean that she should not provide but rather hide her knowledge or the fact that she does well in college? Does that make girl appeal to boy when she employs her ability to be fake and learn to fake that she can’t learn because being smart she imagines could only be the start a long line of let downs, break downs, and world turned upside downs and does that make her weird? Weird because she will study versus whatever the hell you are doing which is kind of funny buddy because while you play video games she’s making the grades and your knowledge base is beginning to fade. But she won’t let it slip that she could take you on a trip- through history and tell you his story of how America had come to be or all about the European army. No. she won’t show that she may possibly know more than girl: I miss you, boy: I miss you too, girl: I love you, boy: I love you more, and girl: I can’t live without you, boy: I can’t either. Because maybe she misses him and maybe just maybe she could be in love with him but she can definitely live without him. They don’t usually not relate, or maybe they do and she just excuses it or passes over it: either way she normally doesn’t notice it. She didn’t even realize when she stopped using her eyes to read, or when boy looked at girl funny when she said, “honey let’s talk about something real, and I want to know how you feel when this discussion ends and no I do not mean to offend you with my topic of logic” or have we reached too far out of your realm because she doesn’t mean to be overwhelm-ing; and is it possible that he is intimidated by the situation she has just created? Or maybe he is just scared that he is basically being dared to respond and that corresponds with his fear that maybe she uses her intelligence and maybe he will have nothing to say and using his common sense he wonders how could he play that off? When did society begin to expect that in order not to disrespect social order she can’t cross that border and she is not capable of conversation, according to him or her or whoever the hell the commonly referred to “they” are. Either way they expect her to be stupid because pretty girls can’t be smart and smart girls can’t be pretty or skinny so if she wants to succeed she must concede and be conceited and conform to whatever form that “they” want. But she is pretty, and she is not stupid.